some of you may have read my previous post on oneitis for my high-end mLTR, so you know, that I struggle with upholding the Alpha 2.0 principles in my relationship with her. I feel like its getting better but I do think there is still a large chance I will screw this up and not be able to maintain it long term. Doesnt matter, I take it as a learning experience.
What I find myself struggling with the most lately is doing favours for her. I have found out I most enjoy the model of one high-end mLTR, 1 regular FB and a few irregular FBs I see maybe once a month. So with my FBs it is mostly smooth sailing - I dont feel obligated doing anything for them and they dont ask, we just enjoy the sex.
With my mLTR this is different. She of course has demands, shit-tests or attempts at betaization if you will that are ridiculous (would you drive me in the middle of the day to a friend, I want to have a vegan dinner ready when I come to your place, etc. I think you can imagine) and I refuse those without a second thought. But then there are things I am on the fence and can't decide if it is a good idea to do them for her or not. For example, she is a model and she frequently flies abroad for photoshoots. Recently one of her flights was at 4:00 AM and she asked me if she could stay the night with me and if I would drive her there. But on the other hand she asked nicely, didnt expect me to do it and offered she would take a cab if I would refuse. I ultimately drove her to the airport after a night full of sex. But I am wondering, if it was the right decision in the Alpha 2.0 frame of the relationship.
What I would like to know your opinion on is this - how do you decide what kind of favours you do for your mLTRs? Where is the line between maintaining a relationship where I believe mutual favours should be part of the equation and supplicating behavior?
I might be overthinking this (I usually do) but this stuff does not come naturally to me - I am on the difficult journey from the most hardcore beta nice guy you can imagine to Alpha 2.0. Lowest level to the highest and so I hope its normal to struggle and be unsure of myself from time to time.
Thanks for your guidance,